I had an epiphany the other day, thinking about where I came from. I was born and raised in 3 different areas (San Jose x Minnesota [suburbs] and Chicago) that are different in it’s own right, and also shaped who I am today. And this is why it’s hard for me to identify with only one city…
First off, San Jose was my birthplace but is not my hometown… Let’s get that out the way.
Why I had this epiphany is was me looking at my old friends in Minnesota on Facebook and [from looking within] they still seem like the same people I knew from when we were 13-14 years old. It makes me wonder if I stayed in that particular area, would I also turn out to be like them. But even as a kid I was disciplined, so peer pressure never got to me like the others. Still to this day, I try to stay in my correct lane. Which is why I’m still the “weird and oddball” of the group.
Coming “BACK” to Chicago (which I hated at first) in ‘06 made me stand out because I’ve lived in Minnesota during my youth so the mentality that Chicago kids have compared to me were on two different levels despite some common factors we can relate to, but even then I was the “other” amongst the other kids when I started going to high school.
But the majority of my adulthood take place here in Chicago, and all the discoveries and talents has originated here. Going to College also expanded my mind, led me to different places, meeting lots of people, doing things I thought I’d never do… Things like this I’d be missing out on if I stayed in Minnesota.
This is why I say my artistry is based in Chicago. I might as well say I’m from Chicago because of where my true journey started, but in the same breath what makes me different from every other [black/female] artist FROM CHICAGO is that my mentality is different than theirs and that is why I give credit to Minnesota because of what I was exposed to there. But when people ask me if I still talk to my old friends from Minnesota, I can’t even identify with that anymore. That’s not me. I’ve changed, and in a very progressive way. I was a kid in Minnesota, and I could say that I was formed there, but Chicago solidified me to when I actually am today.
So where am from at the end of the day?
Still hard to say.
self portraits .
Jovan’s 15 Second of Soul.
Me on my poetic side…
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Self portraits with my new Canon 5D Mark II that I won from eBay. I can definitely tell the difference in quality.
Reblog if it’s your birthday today.
So I’m good.
As videographers, we have technical issues. Clients may not understand these issues but I just got replaced for another videographer because of this matter and the footage I did get weren’t good enough quality for her liking. I’m only in the wrong for not communicating this issue beforehand. But I’ve been creating videos for over 5 years and things happen. Some things are out of my control. But I always find a way to overcome the issues which is why it’s good to always shoot multiple takes of everything. At least three at the most. Not just to have have it, but also to give your editor variety. My other regret in this process was that it was done as a favor, and even though there were tech issues and the files will not be used, the obstacles I had to go through to even transfer the files digitally were a lot to ask for with no type of payment. So just for at least putting in work on set and behind the scenes is worth at least something right? Might as well delete all these files since they’re a waste of space.
It kind of reminds me of a time last year (around the same time actually) where I was doing work for an organization as video and editor (for a discounted price) when they shot without me and so I was left editing a an hour and a half piece that wasn’t even used because their event got canceled. I didn’t even get paid because last minute they said it wasn’t what they wanted and that I only edited from what was agreed. Then they tried to give me half of what I discounted.
I need a manager. I need a lawyer. I need to make sure I don’t run into these problems anymore. I understand when I’m in the wrong, but people don’t understand my worth. They really don’t.